Transform Yourself to Awesomeness

Give me answer Ya Allah

2011-05-19T01:58:00.001-07:00

Is It Possible

Is it possible
That so high debate,
So sharp, so sore, and of such rate,
Should end so soon and was begun so late?
Is it possible?

Is it possible
So cruel intent,
So hasty heat and so soon spent,
From love to hate, and thence for to relent?
Is it possible?

Is it possible
That any may find
Within one heart so diverse mind,
To change or turn as weather and wind?
Is it possible?

Is it possible
To spy it in an eye
That turns as oft as chance on die,
The truth whereof can any try?
Is it possible?

It is possible
For to turn so oft,
To bring that lowest which was most aloft,
And to fall highest yet to light soft:
It is possible.

All is possible
Whoso list believe.
Trust therefore first, and after preve,
As men wed ladies by licence and leave.
All is possible.

but the thing is, will i choose one country within the region or far west? :/

22nd bday.

2010-10-17T20:53:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to myself hahah

haduii tuha ku sudah :)

thanks to orang office. and there was another bday celeb of mine too,

updates besok tah hehe.

xx

tq.

life after the struggle

2010-09-03T20:12:00.000-07:00

i am sorry to everyone ,

sorry if i have been a disappointment in you, frustration and such a spoilt brat.

i am sorry if that is what you think of me,

i have been trying to carry myself in the bestest & greatest way as possible,

i have been trying to show how good a daughter/friend/sister can be.

its up to all to judge, which i thought i didnt care , but now i do.

it matters. please , i am just a girl in my own world,

dont ask me to understand all of you, the least is to understand me.

why must it be me to be blamed at almost all the time?

why after all the hardwork, you just take it negatively.

how sad can a lady be??

i turned myself to 1 side of people, the crowd murmured in despair,

seeing me as anti-social.

this one side of people , 'they' are now has started to do all the blaming,

sadly, on me.

will it be possible for me to go ? i decided to run away, but will it solve ?...

it hangs there,..

for you who i call sisters :(

2010-09-03T17:56:00.000-07:00

"Only in Sleep"

Only in sleep I see their faces,
Children I played with when I was a child,
Louise comes back with her brown hair braided,
Annie with ringlets warm and wild.

Only in sleep Time is forgotten --
What may have come to them, who can know?
Yet we played last night as long ago,
And the doll-house stood at the turn of the stair.

The years had not sharpened their smooth round faces,
I met their eyes and found them mild --
Do they, too, dream of me, I wonder,
And for them am I too a child?

HARI RAYA EID

2010-08-29T17:31:00.000-07:00

about 10-11 days to go for Hari Raya Aidilfitri, i feel happier this year =)

being busy every night at home & day at work. i love my job, love my life and Puasa this year is different. i'm pretty sure hari raya this year will also be much better with some new people in the family. with more of us, surely be merrier.

recall....a year ago...

around this time last year, it was quite horrible i would say.
i was hurt. hurt by some people, emotionally i mean.

and this year, i am glad.

i am much better off without. u.\/

selamat hari raya advance in 11 days :)

love, dom

like unlike hate hatred simple

2010-08-17T22:39:00.000-07:00

i like people but im not sure if people like me.

why? why they dont/wont like me?
answer: cos they are lame people who couldnt just take risks and challenge in life. they cant take my existence as their challenge, so HATRED is the best way for them to NOT feel threatened by me.

I pity those peole who underestimated me and think of themselves as superior.

i see you in the next post.
off to do chores now :)

the one

2010-08-17T22:37:00.000-07:00

It's Not a matter of finding the one,

it's a matter of making him/ her the one.

hence, don't say ''awhhh she's/ he's the one!"
funny eh :P

2010-08-17T22:26:00.000-07:00

it was a social harmony when it was just US <3

SELAMAT BERPUASAAAA :)

2010-08-17T21:51:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT BERPUASAAAA :)

Niat dengan ikhlas,
Kerjakan dengan sempurna,
Hati tulus, minda cergas,
Kerjakan Suruhan Allah,
Laksanakan Perintahnya.
Di Bulan Yang Mulia,
Agar Diberikan Keberkatan,
Datang Kembali Satu Bulan,
Bulan Suci Yang Dinantikan,
Berseri Di Bulan Ramadhan.

Ya Ramadhan.
steady rupanya standard malay ku hehe :)

MAJLIS ILMU 2010

2010-07-27T01:15:00.000-07:00

CAPTIONS SOON :) NOT Today hehe

2010-07-02T23:34:00.001-07:00

REMEMBER!!! NEVER EVER INVOLVE FAMILY .

SHIT

Energy Efficiency Conference recap 13-15th June 2010,

2010-06-17T00:59:00.000-07:00

Energy Efficiency Conference recap 13-15th June 2010, Grand Ball room Empire. A great experience :P

CSPS Rules the Bowls (what?!)

2010-05-28T21:15:00.000-07:00

we had a bowling tournament at Polo and it was awesome. that was to release our tension and all the stress we've been through AND to release the pressure that we already have before adding up somemore in 2 weeks time for the BIG event.
VISIT us at Indera Samudera Grand Hall, Empire 14-15th June 2010 :)

1. Executive Director, Centre For Strategic & Policy Studies
2. THATS ME!! :)
3. erni & i. the two who organised for CSPS
4. Cheng & i, hehe oh god , dont we look really tired? :/
5.the pink panther team
6.the sinful white team :)
7.the kids, yes that includes me :P

Just these!

2010-05-17T23:46:00.000-07:00

busy month bus weeks busy me

2010-05-16T22:42:00.000-07:00

is fighting not to miss you.

Break your heart.

2010-05-05T17:14:00.000-07:00

Now I may not be the worst or the best
But you gotta respect my honesty
And I may break your heart

So you can take this chance, in the end
Everybody's gonna be wondering how you deal

Now listen to me baby
Before I love and leave you
They call me heart breaker
I don't wanna deceive you

If you fall for me
I'm not easy to please
I might tear you apart
Told you from the start, baby from the start

I'm only gonna break break your, break break your heart

There's no point trying to hide it
No point trying to evade it
I know I got a problem
Problem with misbehaving
If you fall for me
I'm not easy to please
I might tear you apart
Told you from the start, baby from the start

I'm only gonna break break your, break break your heart

That's all I'm gonna do man
Listen now, I'm only gonna break your heart
And shatter and splatter it all into little bitty pieces
Whether or not you get it all together
Then its finder's keepers and losers weepers
See I'm not trying to lead you on
No I'm only trying to keep it real

and I know karma's gonna get me back for being so cold
Like a big bad wolf I'm born to be bad and bad to the bone
If you fall for me I'm only gonna tear you apart
Told ya from the start

I'm only gonna break break your, break break your heart

Stabbed you ?

2010-05-04T01:28:00.001-07:00

sorry that you are hurt. sorry that you are in pain. sorry that i drive you crazy.

i am so sorry but i have to stop this before i hurt you somemore.

no need to wait for me since i am not sure as to when i will be really ready for something that i dont want to commit.

is turning away

2010-05-02T22:42:00.000-07:00

LISTEN WELL

2010-05-02T21:13:00.000-07:00

i didnt go without explanation, i didnt go. you left without patience.

Here, let me do the talking now and read well.

when i told you i've been busy and all i can think is my career, you thought i was just saying it. i think i am in love with what i do. i enjoy my work and when i say i'm busy, i really am. BUT, i know this is no excuse.. it sounded like one when i had to make you understand when you never do. when i say, i've been freaking busy, I HAVE BEEN REALY BUSY! and i am busy for the next 6weeks!

i stay up late, wake up early, lunch in the office and stay in the office after 4.30pm.

the so-called wannabe Finance girl is struggling so hard, ALONE! the accountant is only for one.. i know i have no background, that is why i've been attending courses at night.

i'd rather be alone and not hurt anyone feelings than be with someone but i know i definitely can't handle when i'm busy and what you need is attention. i know, i would need attention too.. but NOT 24/7. i have to run away tho my heart hurts.

i want no relationship for now.

i kid you not.

The Best Moments I n Life

2010-04-26T22:15:00.001-07:00

The Best Moments I n Lifee

1. Falling in love. [Heart Eyes]
2. Laughing till your stomach hurts. [Lol]
3. Enjoying a ride down the country side. [Low Rider]
4. Listening to your favorite song on the radio. [Thumbs Up]
5. Going to sleep listening to the rain pouring outside. [Pillow]
6. Getting out of the shower and wrapping yourself with a warm, fuzzy towel. [Shower 2]
7. Passing your final exams with good grades. [A+]
8. Being part of an interesting conversation.
9. Finding some money in some old pants. [Dollar Smiley]
10. Laughing at yourself. [Tongue Out]
11. Sharing a wonderful dinner with all your friends. [Pizza Pie]
12. Laughing without a reason. [Too Funny]
13. 'Accidentally' hearing someone say somthing good about you. [Thumbs Up]
14. Watching the sunset. [Stargazing]
15. Listening to a song that reminds you of an important person in your life. [Animated Hearts]
16. Receiving or giving your first kiss. [Dream Kiss 2]
17. Feeling this movement in your body when seeing this 'special' someone. [Cupid 2]
18. Having a great time with your friends. [Party Smileys]
19. Seeing the one you love happy. [Wakka-wakka]
20. Wearing the shirt of a person you love and smelling his/her perfume. [Perfume]
21. Visiting an old friend of yours and remembering great memories. [Bouncy 4]
22. Hearing some telling you 'I LOVE YOU' [Cupid Fires]

2010-04-24T01:05:00.002-07:00

a month away.
and my hectic 2 weeks.

2010-04-24T01:05:00.001-07:00

a month away.
and my 2 hectic 2 weeks.

Bye.

one to you and another

2010-04-23T23:49:00.001-07:00

is sorry to you , you and you.

i never meant to.

2010 = path

2010-04-21T01:29:00.000-07:00

it will be a hell busy year for me and sigh... guess my vacation will only be next year??:(

fikirkan sejenak.....

2010-04-20T22:41:00.000-07:00

Doktor memulakan syarahannya dengan membawa para hadirin memikirkan
sejenak dengan hadith yang maknanya sedikit sebanyak.....

"Dalam diri-diri kamu ada kebesaran Tuhan". Doktor menyuruh kita melihat
kedua tapak tangan dan perhatikan garis-garis di tapak tangan kita.

Garisan-garisandi tangan kiri menunjukkan angka 8 dan 1 dalam Bahasa
Arab dan tangan kanan 1 dan 8 dan membawa ke jumlah 81 + 18 = 99 iaitu
bilangan nama Allah.

Berikut adalah antara intipati syarahannya secara ringkas:-

1. Cara makan, kenapa kita gunakan tangan? Mengikut cara Rasulullah

s.a.w, beliau akan menggaulkan lauk dan nasi dengan tangan kanannya dan
kemudian membiarkan sebentar, lalu Rasullah saw akan mengambil sedikit
garam menggunakan jari kecilnya(yg last tu), lalu Rasullah saw akan
menghisap garam itu. Kemudian barulah Rasulullah makan nasi dan lauknya.

Mengapa? Kerana kedua belah tangan kita ada mengeluarkan
3 macam enzim, tetapi konsentrasi di tangan kanan kurang sedikit dari yg
kiri. Ini adalah kerana enzim yg ada di tangan kanan itu merupakan enzim
yang dapat menolong proses penghadaman (digestion), ia merupakan the
first process of digestion.

Mengapa menghisap garam? Kerana garam adalah sumber mineral dari tanah
yg diperlukan oleh badan kita. Dua cecah garam dari jari kita itu adalah
sama dgn satu liter air mineral. Kita berasal dari tanah maka lumrahnya
bahan yang asal dari bumi (tanah) inilah yg paling berkhasiat untuk
kita.

Kenapa garam? Selain dari sebab ia adalah sumber mineral, garam juga
adalah penawar yang paling mujarab bagi keracunan, mengikut Doktor2
dihospital-hospital, the first line of treatment for poisoning adalah
dengan memberi Sodium Chloride, iaitu GARAM. Garam juga dapat menghalang
sihir dan makhluk-makhluk halus yang ingin menggangu manusia.

2. Cara Rasulullah mengunyah - Rasulullah akan mengunyah sebanyak 40
kali untuk membiarkan makanan itu betul-betul lumat agar perut kita
senang memproseskan makanan itu.

3. Membaca Basmalah (Bismillahirrahma Nirrahim). Membaca Basmalah
sebelum makan untuk mengelakkan penyakit. Kerana bakteria dan racun ada
membuat perjanjian dengan Allah swt, apabila Basmalah dibaca maka
bakteria dan racun akan musnah dari sumber makanan itu.

Cara Rasulullah minum:-

Janganlah kita minum berdiri walaupun ia makruh tetapi ia makruh yang
menghampiri kepada haram. Jangan kita minum dari bekas yg besar dan
jangan bernafas sedang kita minum. Kerana apabila kita minum dari bekas
yg besar, lumrahnya kita akan meneguk air dan dalam proses minum itu,
kita tentu akan bernafas dan menghembuskan nafas dari hidung kita.

Kerana apabila kita hembus, kita akan mengeluarkan CO2 iaitu carbon
dioxide, yang apabila bercampur dgn air H20, akan menjadi H2CO3, iaitu
sama dengan cuka, menyebabkan minuman itu menjadi acidic. Jangan meniup
air yang panas, sebabnya sama diatas.

Cara minum, seteguk bernafas, seteguk bernafas sehingga habis.

Mengapa Islam menyuruh di sebat 100 kali orang belum berkahwin yang
berzina, danmerejam sehingga mati org yg sudah berkahwin yang berzina?

Badan manusia akan mengeluarkan sel-sel darah putih atau antibiotik yg
dapat melawan penyakit. Dan sel-sel ini terdapat di daerah tulang
belakang, berdekatan dengan sum-sum tulang manusia. Lelaki yang belum
berkahwin dia akan dapat mengeluarkan beribu-ribu sel ini,manakala
lelaki yang sudah berkahwin hanya dapat menghasilkan 10 unit sel ini
sehari,kerana antara sebabnya ialah kerana sel-sel lain akan hilang
kerana perhubungan suami isteri. Jadi apabila lelaki yang belum
berkahwin didapati salah kerana zina hendaklah disebat 100 kali. Ini
adalah kerana apabila dia disebat di belakangnya, suatu maran tentang
kesakitan itu akan membuatkan penghasilan beribu sel antibiotik yang
dapat melawan virus HIV jika ia ada di badannya, dengan itu dapatlah
antibodi melawan virus HIV itu.Tetapi jika lelaki itu sudah
berkahwin,walaupun disebat 100 kali ia akan tetap menghasilkan 10 unit
antibodi sahaja, jadi dengan itu ukumannya direjam hingga mati agar dia
tidak dapat merebakkan virus HIV itu.

Itulah sedikit sebanyak inti syarahan yg disampaikan oleh Dr Jamnul Azhar.
Harap ia akan memberi manfaat pada anda sekalian, dan sedikit informasi
yang diberikan oleh Mudaris(guru) ana, Mudaris Iskandar mengenai Ka'bah.

Mengapa ia terletak di Mekah al-Mukarramah dan mengapa ia empat
persegi(cube). Ia terletak di posisinya sekarang kerana setelah dibuat
kajian oleh para cendikiawan dari Pakistan dan Arab, didapati, tempat
terletaknya Ka'bah sekarang itu, adalah betul-betul di tengah bumi.

Mengapa ia empat persegi, ia melambangkan perpaduan ummah yang bergerak
maju bersama,equality and unity, tidak seperti bentuk pyramid, dimana ia
diumpamakan, seperti hanya seorang pemenang yg berada diatas setelah ia
memijak-mijak yang lain. Dan antara lagi sebab mengapa 4 persegi
melambangkan 4 imam besar, Maliki, Hambali, Hanafi dan
Syafi'i,melambangkan kebenaran keempat-empat Imam tersebut. Sekian buat
renungan bersama, Fi amanillah Jazakallah

TOLONG SEBARKAN DAN JADIKAN AMALAN BERGUNA.... BAGUS NI...

Strong Back > Lighter Weight

2010-04-20T20:20:00.000-07:00

Say:
? Subhaan-Allah
? Al-hamdu-Lillah
? Allaah-Ho-Akbar
? Laa ilaha ilalahu Muhammad - u - Rasoolullah
? Allaahumma Salli Alaa Sayyidina Muhammad wa Alaa Aalihi wa Sahabihi Wasallim

Prophet mohammad said this 1400 yrs ago!
· Camels will no longer be used as a means of transport;
* People will ride on saddles that aren't saddles (cars?)
* The distance on earth will become short;
* Horses will not be used in wars;
* Muslims will defeat the Byzantines which will end with the conquest of Constantinople
· Istanbul);
* The Jews will gather again to live in Bilad Canaan;
* Very tall buildings will be built;
* The disappearance of knowledge and the appearance of ignorance, with much killing;
* Adultery will become widespread, and the drinking of wine will become common;
* The number of men will decrease and the number of women will increase until there are 50 women to be looked after by one man.
* Islam will become worn out like clothes are, until no one will know what fasting, prayer, charity and rituals are;
* Allah will send a disease to fornicators that will have no cure (Aids?);
* People will begin to believe in the stars and reject AL QADAR (THE DIVINE DECREE OF DESTINY);
* Men will pass by people's graves and say: 'Would that I were in his place'; (large amount of sucidal deaths?)
* The Euphrates will uncover a mountain of gold for which people will fight over (the river of Alfurat that lies near Syria );
* Two large groups of people will fight one another, and there will be many casualties; they will both be following the same religion World War II?);
* Approximately 30 DAJJALS will appear, each one claiming to be the messenger of ALLAH;
* Earthquakes will increase; * Time will pass quickly;
* Afflictions will appear;
* Killing will increase;
* Wealth will increase;
* Women will be wearing clothes but not wearing clothes
* THE PROPHET (saw) SAID: 'IF MY UMMAH BEARS 15 TRAITS (QUALITIES), TRIBULATION WILL FOLLOW IT.' (DAY OF JUDGEMENT) SOMEONE ASKED,'WHAT ARE THEY O MESSENGER OF ALLAH?' HE (saw) SAID:
* When any gain is shared out only among the rich, with no benefit to the poor;
* When a trust becomes a means of making profit;
* When paying ZAKKAT becomes a burden;
* When voices are raised in the mosque;
* When the leader of a people is the worst of them; when people treat a man with respect because what he may do;
* When much wine is drunk; red wind or the earth swallow them, or to be transformed into animals.'
* 'IMRAN IBN HUSAYN SAID: 'THE PROPHET (AS) SAID, 'SOME PEOPLE OF THIS UMMAH WILL BE SWALLOWED BY THE EARTH, TRANSFORMED INTO ANIMALS, AND SOME WILL BE BOMBARDED WITH STONES'. ONE OF THE MUSLIMS ASKED, WHEN WILL THAT BE O MESSENGER Of ALLAH?' HE SAID, 'WHEN SINGERS AND MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS WILL BECOME POPULAR, AND MUCH
WINE IS DRUNK.'' THE GREATER SIGNS OF THE HOUR The Quran will disappear in one night, even from the people's hearts, and no Ayah will be left on earth. (Some groups of old people will be left who will say: 'We heard of fathers' saying 'LAILLAHA ILLA ALLAH' so we repeat it);
* The appearance of the MAHDI;
* The appearance of the DAJJAL (Anti Christ); * The appearance of Ya'juj and Ma'juj (biblical Gog and Magog);
* Isa (Jesus) will come during the time of Dajjal;
* The rising of the sun from the west;
* The destruction of the Ka'ba and the recovery of its treasures;
* The smoke.
Just remember- Allah is watching you. Prayer Wheel, Let's see the devil stop this one! Here's what the wheel is all about. When you receive this, say a prayer for the person that sent it to you.... There are no costs, but wonderful rewards.... Let's continue praying for one another.
As we look at this article we realize how true the Messenger (P.B.U.H) was these signs were prophesized 1400 years ago.

Always Remember:-'Ask ALLAH For A Strong Back Rather Than Asking Lighter Weight ! !

Wounded

2010-04-20T19:22:00.000-07:00

For now and upcoming years to come, i feel safer alone. I don't like to hurt people, don't want to tear them apart. Cos i know how i am. I am not mean, i am not. i just don't know how to say NO.

I am hurt. Deeply hurt.
I am sorry.
contradicting much when i say 'no fake smile' when now im putting one on my face !

Don't Sweat it?

2010-04-18T20:27:00.000-07:00

I Ever..

Comment in:

BACKGROUND & AIMS: Gastroesophageal reflux typically occurs after meals. During dual gastric and esophageal pH monitoring, we observed that postprandial refluxate was often more acidic than the gastric contents.

This study aimed to investigate this phenomenon. METHODS: Dual gastric and esophageal pH tracings were analyzed from 40 dyspeptic patients. Dual pH electrode pull-through studies were performed in healthy volunteers to document regional variation in intragastric pH under both fasting and postprandial conditions.

The squamocolumnar junction was identified using radio-opaque endoscopic clips. We also examined in vitro partitioning of gastric juice added to a homogenized fatty meal.

RESULTS: The dual pH traces confirmed that esophageal refluxate was frequently more acidic than the body of the stomach after meals but not during fasting. The pull-through studies showed a pocket of acid at the gastroesophageal junction that escaped the buffering effect of meals, remaining highly acidic (median pH 1.6) compared with the body of the stomach (pH 4.7; P < 0.001). This proximal acid pocket extended from the cardia across the squamocolumnar junction 1.8 cm into the distal esophagus. The in vitro studies showed that acidic gastric juice could partition on top of a homogenized fatty meal.

CONCLUSIONS: After eating, highly acidic unbuffered gastric juice is present at the gastroesophageal squamocolumnar junction and is likely to contribute to the high prevalence of disease at this site.

Do the Chicken Dance

2010-04-18T20:16:00.001-07:00

Good Morning Monday Sunshine.

Nothing much, but look what i found!

The Definition:
Dom Game Cock
Look great and promote your hobby!
Doms are very beautiful chickens, showing some barring over their plumage. They are also called Creles or Creels.

sick within

2010-04-18T19:26:00.001-07:00

Don't want to hurt people.

People. Please don't hurt me.

friday,hoping for victory

2010-04-15T02:12:00.001-07:00

hi, and this is the only chance i can blog and tell about my week . its been really hectic and somehow this awesomely tiring accounting makes me go -hello-i-need-a-break! shit! noone really understands how stressful i am at work, but on a second thot, i am actualy lovin' it. loving the situation where i can only concentrate on work and not depressing myself on other things. i want some relaxation ... maybe soon.not so soon lah.. \
one report after another and to come and think about it, where was i in class at high school to learn all these beautiful numbers that i have yet to be in love with .
roflmaoqwerty.

too much in one time and multi-tasking sounds fun if you know how to handle but never force a girl like me or you get screwed! seriously.

thanks .
Loves,dome

work

2010-04-14T00:32:00.000-07:00

busy days, meetings everyday. LUNCH always remember!

be back

2010-04-13T01:38:00.000-07:00

busy like hell. bye to blog for a week or two. xx

Arigato Gozaimasu

2010-04-12T02:30:00.000-07:00

Pre-whatever-you-wanna-call-it Dinner :D
Nice meal at a nice place. (Y)

Strong & Strength with Smile

2010-04-12T00:41:00.000-07:00

I only want one thing for now, concentration. ON WORK! i have been rather busy at work and my sleeping pattern has changed. I need focus and need to compile infos for my own benefit. i have to be selfish and think of myself and just me for now. i dont even have time to think at night of what to do the next day but to deal with so many unexpected task to be received and get them done with. On the other hand, i apologize to people that i have neglected or perhaps forgotten for quite awhile. 2010. a hectic year and i so need a vacation once everything is done. Seriously.

"I was once so afraid of falling. And you please Don't fall"

Give me strength to get all these to end quickly cos i can't handle.

I want the sign for me to see

2010-04-06T10:21:00.000-07:00

.boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu/sesorang, padahal ia amat baik bagimu dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu/sesorang, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, ALLAH swt mengetahui, sedangkan kamu tidak mengetahuinya ~~ Al-Baqarah ,216.

isnt that just so true in my situation now,
tunjukkan lah kebenaran ku, Ya Allah.

2010-04-04T22:49:00.000-07:00

Selfish?

2010-04-04T22:44:00.001-07:00

is seriously fudging stress at work!!!

Every time. All the time. Or perhaps, Most of the time. - tired.

Secretive Much??

2010-04-02T21:11:00.000-07:00

i hate this feeling of becoming just like one of them.

one of those bastards. those a**h*les. Them Madafacka.
Becoming them, i've hurt so many people and i am sorry.

How can i end all everything in just one peaceful night?
I like it not, having secrets and keeping them all in my mind.
Somehow i smile , fake. At times.

Have a nice weekend.

You And I

2010-04-01T01:15:00.001-07:00

I lose control because of you babe
I lose control when you look at me like this
there's something in your eyes that is sayin' tonight
I'm not a child anymore, life has opened the door
to a new exciting life

I lose control when I'm close to you babe
I lose control don't look at me like this
there's something in your eyes, is this love at first sight
like a flower that grows, life just wants you to know
all the secrets of life

It's all written down in your lifelines
it's written down inside your heart

You and I just have a dream
to find our love a place
where we can hide away
you and I were just made
to love each other now
forever and a day

I lose control because of you babe
I lose control when you look at me like this
there's something in your eyes that is sayin' tonight
I'm so curious for more just like never before
in my innocent life

It's all written down in your lifelines
it's written down inside your heart

You and I just have a dream
to find our love a place
where we can hide away
you and I were just made
to love each other now
forever and a day

Time stands still
when days of innocence are falling for the night
I love you girl I always will
I swear I'm there for you till the day I'll die

When I'm Gone

2010-04-01T01:11:00.000-07:00

Needs to be just with one.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I miss the girl

2010-03-30T18:40:00.000-07:00

How can i not miss all these. my inspiration, sigh.

Sorry Seems To be the hardest word

2010-03-30T17:03:00.000-07:00

The girl needs to apologize for all the pain you have to endure for all this time.

You see the pain that lies in her eyes,

2010-03-30T01:05:00.000-07:00

But, alas, her eyes are dry,
She won’t cry.
No, she won’t cry.

You see the anger that burns from her gaze,
The madness that sets her eyes ablaze,
She won’t cry.
No, she won’t cry.

You see the fear that closes her eyes,
The smile she wears is but a disguise,
She won’t cry.
No, she won’t cry.

You see the hope that is finally dead,
She cannot trust for her heart has been bled,
She won’t cry.
No, she won’t cry.

You see the love that lies within,
But she shall never love again,
She won’t cry.
No, she won’t cry.

You see death’s hand that has glazed her eyes,
No one saw her die inside,
They won’t cry.
No, they won’t cry.

and another…=]

and i couldn't find my ring :( sighs

Relaxed

2010-03-30T00:56:00.000-07:00

Lovin' this Spot.

I feel blue

2010-03-29T21:09:00.000-07:00

I am not feeling well, This week will be hectic. I hope by the 3rd i'd be fine. Sigh B.O.D meeting is on the 3rd April 2010.

Hope everything will be fine :/

Shotokan Karate

2010-03-28T19:36:00.000-07:00

Kyu's 10-1

Mokuroku 1-9

10. Jukyu........white belt

1. Shodan...black belt 1st degree

9. Kukyu.........white belt

2. Nidan...black belt 2nd degree

8. Hachikyu.....white belt

3. Sandan...black belt 3rd degree

7. Shichikyu....white belt

4. Yondan...black belt 4th degree

6. Rokyu.........green belt

5. Godan...black belt 5th degree

5. Gokyu.........green belt

6. Rokudan...black belt 6th degree

4. Yonkyu.......green belt

7. Shichidan...black belt 7th degree*

3. Sankyu.......brown belt

8. Hachidan...black belt 8th degree*

2. Nikyu..........brown belt

9. Kudan...black belt 9th degree**

1. Ikkyu..........brown belt

10. Judan...black belt 10th degree**

I miss Karate :(.

:D Monday Post

2010-03-28T19:29:00.000-07:00

You are crazy boring if you don't laugh at the pictures!! hahaha

Law 1

2010-03-28T18:22:00.000-07:00

Frank Sinatra mugshot

Frank Sinatra mugshot

Legendary singer Frank Sinatra spent sixteen hours in the Bergen County jail, New Jersey, back in 1938. He was arrested on charges of seduction and adultery. The charges were later dismissed. Neither of the acts for which he was charged is against the law today.

*HAHAHAHAH, cali tu ah :D

my updates

2010-03-26T20:38:00.000-07:00

I feel like going for Karaoke, AGAIN. Please bring me there and i shall make your night a nightmare! hahahahhaha :D
oh some photos taken from the night LIVS lost to MANU :D .

Here and there

2010-03-26T18:14:00.000-07:00

Just some pictures :D

watched UP IN THE AIR BIDA!

thank you.
1. my car kata the indian guy "your car water jug is overflow" hahah.
2. nescafe ice is nyaman, not as strong as mr.brown.
3.I didnt drink this minuman from starbucks.
4.me.
5. ka Cheng gave me this! <3

2010-03-25T20:44:00.000-07:00

bah. soon!

random. dom dom wants freedom.

2010-03-24T17:29:00.000-07:00

macam kana karat2 and kana makan hatiku, lapas tu kana potong2 dan kana ampaskan ke dinding. Lawa jua ah in malay. kemudian kana putik dan di goreng menjadi ikan masin.haha.
shut it! i just feel like typing those things down, sounds like music to my ear. random ah?

have a nice day.

I want to RUN away

2010-03-23T00:51:00.000-07:00

-is better off alone.
-what's the point?
-so?
-gahh. shuddup.

:)

Childhood song? :)

2010-03-22T23:35:00.000-07:00

Ako; Leron Leron Sinta nya na.

Leron leron sinta,
Buko ng papaya,
Dala-dalay buslo,
Sisidlan ang bunga,
Pagdating sa dulo,
Nabali ang sanga,
Kapos ka paralan,
Humanap ng iba.

Gumising ka nene
Tayo mag kwentohan
Tungkol sa aso,
Na may kalaro,
Kalaro niyay pusa,
Nag away silang dalawa.

ahhhh. glad i found Papaya.

SUPPORT OR.

2010-03-22T22:23:00.001-07:00

GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED.

SOME SAY THEY WONT,
I SAY THEY'VE WON!!

Quoted

2010-03-22T19:37:00.000-07:00

Although you are assertive and a natural born leader, you don't mind being led. No doubt, you may procrastinate at times, you really are a hardworker. However, you know when to cool down and have fun. You make sure you incorporate rest into your day and often feel agitated without a good dose of alone time.

u can be extrmely impulsive and are prone to drastic mood shifts. ''You may feel great- energetic and excited one day -as if you won the nobel prize or lottery, but without warning, the next moment you may feel depressed and suicidal.''

D : You have trouble trusting people.
I : You are always smiling and making others smile.
Y : You cause a lot of trouble.
A : You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
N : You like to work, but you always want a break.
A : You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.

M : Success comes easily to you.
A : You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
R : You are a social butterfly.
C : You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
U : You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
S : You are very broad-minded.

C : You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
O : You are very open-minded.
N : You like to work, but you always want a break.
O : You are very open-minded.
R : You are a social butterfly.

H : You are not judgmental.
S : You are very broad-minded.

ah dont ask where i get marcus conor :P hahaha

Pure boredom

2010-03-21T23:57:00.000-07:00

why so serious when we aren't ready.

why so deep when we're shallow.

why so emo . chill. relax. seriously?

Don't sweat it.

Bohemian Rhapsody.

2010-03-21T20:08:00.000-07:00

Is this the real life?
Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landslide
No escape from reality
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see
I'm just a poor boy (Poor boy)
I need no sympathy
Because I'm easy come, easy go
Little high, little low
Any way the wind blows
Doesn't really matter to me, to me

Mama just killed a man
Put a gun against his head
Pulled my trigger, now he's dead
Mama, life has just begun
But now I've gone and thrown it all away
Mama, ooh
Didn't mean to make you cry
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow
Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters

Too late, my time has come
Sends shivers down my spine
Body's aching all the time
Goodbye, everybody
I've got to go
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth
Mama, oooooooh (Anyway the wind blows)
I don't want to die
Sometimes wish I'd never been born at all

I see a little silhouetto of a man
Scaramouch, Scaramouch, will you do the Fandango
Thunderbolt and lightning, very, very frightening me
(Galileo) Galileo (Galileo) Galileo, Galileo Figaro
Magnifico-o-o-o-o
I'm just a poor boy nobody loves me
He's just a poor boy from a poor family
Spare him his life from this monstrosity

Easy come, easy go, will you let me go?
Bismillah! No, we will not let you go
Let him go
Bismillah! We will not let you go
Let him go
Bismillah! We will not let you go
Let me go (Will not let you go)
Let me go (Will not let you go) (Never, never, never, never)
Let me go, o, o, o, o
No, no, no, no, no, no, no
(Oh mama mia, mama mia) Mama Mia, let me go
Beelzebub has the devil put aside for me, for me, for me!

So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye
So you think you can love me and leave me to die
Oh, baby, can't do this to me, baby
Just gotta get out, just gotta get right outta here

(Oooh yeah, Oooh yeah)

Nothing really matters
Anyone can see
Nothing really matters
Nothing really matters to me

Any way the wind blows...

"I Need Not Go"

2010-03-21T20:07:00.000-07:00

I need not go
Through sleet and snow
To where I know
She waits for me;
She will wait me there
Till I find it fair,
And have time to spare
From company.

When I've overgot
The world somewhat,
When things cost not
Such stress and strain,
Is soon enough
By cypress sough
To tell my Love
I am come again.

And if some day,
When none cries nay,
I still delay
To seek her side,
(Though ample measure
Of fitting leisure
Await my pleasure)
She will riot chide.

What--not upbraid me
That I delayed me,
Nor ask what stayed me
So long? Ah, no! -
New cares may claim me,
New loves inflame me,
She will not blame me,
But suffer it so.

Thomas Hardy

Broken Music

2010-03-21T20:06:00.001-07:00

The mother will not turn, who thinks she hears
Her nursling's speech first grow articulate;
But breathless with averted eyes elate
She sits, with open lips and open ears,
That it may call her twice. 'Mid doubts and fears
Thus oft my soul has hearkened; till the song,
A central moan for days, at length found tongue,
And the sweet music welled and the sweet tears.

But now, whatever while the soul is fain
To list that wonted murmur, as it were
The speech-bound sea-shell's low importunate strain, -
No breath of song, thy voice alone is there,
O bitterly beloved! and all her gain
Is but the pang of unpermitted prayer.

2010-03-19T20:43:00.000-07:00

Went to Miri 19.03.2010

-wanted to find equipments for tennis, but someone was too choosy.hahaha
-Finally, Miri. Didn't go to Butterfly Valley, what a disappointment.
-A good Friend. Very funny & Dumb at times.
-Adorable.
-I like your Shoes.
-I love my hair.
-T'was a great trip to Miri. I didn't sleep. Thank you.

:)

-plenty smart.

give me the wind

2010-03-17T21:09:00.001-07:00

angry like monster.

sigh.

2010-03-12T22:34:00.000-08:00

feel really sick! sigh.

i feel realy sick. sick.

read only if youre interested

2010-03-09T15:39:00.000-08:00

:)

hello, here- for you all out there.

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.
53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.
56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.
57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."
59. Guys don't really have final decisions.
60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.
62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.
67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.
68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.
69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!
70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

co mo la flor

2010-03-08T23:43:00.001-08:00

Yo se que tienes
Un nuevo amor
Sin embargo
Te deseo lo mejor

Si en mi no encontraste
Felicidad
Tal vez alguien mas
Te la dara

Como la flor (como la flor)
Con tanto amor (con tanto amor)
Me diste tu
Se marchito
Me marcho hoy
Yo se perder
Pere ay...
Como me duele
Ay...
Como me duele

Si vieras como duele
Perder tu amor
Con tu adios te llevas
Mi corazon

No se si pueda
Volver a amar
Porque te di todo el amor
Que pude dar

Como la flor...

2010-03-08T18:18:00.000-08:00

i see no point here and there. so i am taking this real slow.

I DONT WANNA TALK ABOUT IT

2010-03-06T00:15:00.000-08:00

i don't wanna talk about it.

How could you give me hope and now take it away just like that. Just LIKE THAT!!

:( bahhhhh lajuuuu .. let me go wahhhh !!
hahahahah i am gonna blame ka cheng !! :(

SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Saturday sunday TEN facts

2010-03-05T22:15:00.000-08:00

Saturday and i'm loving it. Tomorrow is Sunday, 7th March 2010.4.50pm i will be at the International Airport of Brunei . Waiting for Aunt Dina to come home, though i am being skeptical about her comeback. but yeah,tawakal saja.

Anyhooss, here are the TEN facts ;P

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts. ( how about a girl without clothes on? lmao)
42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.(chicken please, now that you know)
43. Guys virtually brag about anything.(ANYTHINGG!!)
44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.(sigh!)
45. Guys think too much.(or not think at all!)
46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.(i wonder what they fantasize at most time..)
47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does! (diet is soon tah ku ni)
48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!! (woooo...)
49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl. ( hehehheeee.)
50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.(agree!!)

MY MISERY WILL SOON BE OVER!! <3

FACTS and i am BLUE

2010-03-03T19:22:00.000-08:00

hi, i feel blue today, just becos i see KA Cheng wearing blue, made my mood also blue.
how can you ignore?
nevertheless, here are the ten +10 facts lagi :(

21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.( excusessssss!!)
22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow." (majal macam kaling)
23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.(guys endangnya , mau specific to make things clear)
24. Guys hate gays! (hmmm.. hahaha are you sure?)
25. Guys love their moms. (awww..)
26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.(how come i never get one ?:()
27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.(baiee tu eh!)
28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.( i listen2 always)
29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.(then show me)
30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.(ehh macam c-psycho tu)
31. Like Eve, girls are guys EUR™ weaknesses.
32. Guys are very open about themselves.(just dont open your baju!)
33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.(hmm. glad i did, and sorry to that someone *kirai2*)
34. No guy is bad when he is courting.(baaddddddd!!! thats how i think :P)
35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.(mun ia asgar?)
36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.
37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.(babi tu eh!)
38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.(:))
39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.(confuse ku eh)
40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else. (and dont worry cos i will do the same)

Ten the 2nd :)

2010-03-02T19:12:00.000-08:00

Good Morning :) its not that i dont have anything to do at work but i promised to give you another ten today ! :0
here, go ahead and read-

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.(reallY?)
11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.(hahaha i didnt force you to kan?)
12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking! ( or maybe flirting?,but UMPH you nervous all the time)
13. Guys cry!!!!!!!! (you gotta let me see :P)
14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.(i've been there and it was ugly :( )
15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.( hahahaha sad but true )
16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.( inda mau alah banar)
17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.(awwww (",) )
18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.(oh my)
19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.(let me quote "esp masa you pegang2" hahahah , now i know)
20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really love. (no wonderrrrrrr !!!)

i have to agree to some :P

finance girl is back on track

2010-03-01T19:41:00.000-08:00

a week off is over ! i cant wait for the 7th and carry her bag to my car! i just cant wait for her to be back and all the misery is over, ASS, dont want to be an ASS, dont want to be an "Amah Sementara Selamanya" AUNt Dina! :)

Ahhhh, back at work, feels really good. love being busy, so i wont think much but work hard and have money ! haha..

live life to the fullest as you may say.

we start with the FIRST 10

2010-03-01T19:35:00.000-08:00

From today onwards, i will be really telling you what i've found.
everyday is a new day and i will observe you to see how far some facts are true .
How about you Read these 10 FACTS about Guys,

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.
2. Guys love flirts.
3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.
5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.
8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.
10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

stay tune and you might find another 10(or 20?) tomorrow with no sorrow. hahaha okay okay.

i talk, you talk, lets talk.

OFFFFF! dont miss me

2010-02-22T00:19:00.000-08:00

HOLIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY STARTS TODAYYYY!!!! :D :D :D

HOPE IT WOULD BE BEAUTIFUL !! :p

dont miss me :p

2010-02-21T18:30:00.000-08:00

21/02/2010
My Fortune cookies today says:
"You were born with the skill to communicate with people easily"

22/02/2010
My Horoscope says:
This could be a good day for planning on some kind of revitalizing or rejuvenating adventure, Libra. This could be a spa day, a trip to some exotic place, or even a special day at home devoted to your comfort and healing. It's important that you do something for yourself today. Even if your plans are being interfered with by circumstance, today is a day on which you'll be able to do small things that help you get to the big things ahead. Today healing energy is so strong, anything you try may work.

My Fortune cookies today says:
"Something you lost will soon turn up."

KA CHengs Open house

2010-02-21T16:48:00.000-08:00

My Chinese New Year This year 2010. whata BLAST :)
hehe not that i do celebrate pulang. er.
have a great roarrrr year !

2010-02-21T16:40:00.000-08:00

Nisa likes to take photo of me LOL.
whatever you want to call it yeah nis :P

not vain-

hi listen to dom talks

2010-02-16T23:47:00.000-08:00

just cant wait for next week's holiday. homaigadd!! i hope i can enjoy my off days, its been really tiring since i started , but worth working my ass off for this awesomely tiring job and i guess i am loving every single thing that i am learning tho at times payah jua to cope and adopt. cibai but yeah.

a week off from work, i need fresh air to breathe and i want peace. i need to be calm and away from hectic Brunei ( do i sound like i want to go outta here?:P ) well you never know.

how about Singapore or KL? i want to go there for 2010's vacation. maybe end of the year. how about that? i want good dinner, good music to my ear, good view. please fill my 2010 with good things and awesome events. i don't want 2010 to be dull, i want freedom. *sigh.

hargghh, i dont know why i typed that, i just feel like being random awal ani jua cos my mind is so up there.

i like lame people, but not too lame. that annoys me, seriously. i love people. basically lah ah.

tengkius.

2010-02-15T22:57:00.000-08:00

YES !!! i am craving for sushiisssssss!!! (plural/singular?) doesnt matter!!

:( i havent had sushi for YONKS! i love you sush!

2010-02-09T01:16:00.001-08:00

Your Love Horoscope 9/02/2010

You are going to see some challenges on the romantic front, Libra, but you can expect these challenges to be short lived. This is a time where whether you are single or attached, you may experience some disappointment today. Disappointment in a friend or lover and possibly the realization that you have been neglecting your own needs for socializing, affection, and companionship is indicated today. In either case, loneliness and feelings of desolation could be the mood. Perhaps you are sacrificing pleasure and love for the sake of achievements or to meet responsibilities. Either way, just tend to your own needs today, and look forward for better days to come.

:) aku ngaleh, work has been so tiring gilaaaaa

2010-02-09T01:13:00.000-08:00

Facebook says : Your Daily Horoscope: February 8, 2010
Libra Sept. 23 - Oct 22 (Wrong Sign?)
If you're planning on going out for an entertaining evening, or just getting together with friends, then you need to be really careful, Libra, because you may find yourself dealing with something you'd rather not. This is especially true if you place your faith in things that promise you a way to avoid effort; especially as far as relationship matters are concerned. It's your communication skills that you will benefit from today, not someone else's magic. Expect a surprise message today; it may be just what you need (but not want) to hear.

macam banar rasaku, magic eh facebook ani ah (Y)

2010-01-31T21:04:00.000-08:00

i feel sick.

not just ordinary sickness but more, so much more !

2010-01-31T20:17:00.001-08:00

Diyana Hakimah Transformer Hs "1916, 1928, 1940, 1952, 1964, 1976, 1988, 2000, 2012. People born in the Year of the Dragon are energetic, humorous, capable, and idealistic. Their decisiveness can at times make them seem overconfident, but they do inspire confidence and trust. They are also quite excitable, short-tempered, and stubborn. Their compatible signs are Monkey, Rat, and Rooster."

seems right :D

i believe what i want to believe

2010-01-29T07:49:00.000-08:00

My reason is you, i am not a perfect person. as many things i wish i didnt do. but i continue learning, i never meant to do those things to you.

It upsets me sometimes.....

i dont sweat the small stuff now, never again i want to do the same mistake.
yes, i ever did, long time ago but how can i do that again to someone new. Someone i think i can trust and count on. Will that someone new feel the same way i do ?

how come some people think that 'its just something small, its 'nothing for you to bother' . Have you ever thought that sometimes, that very little thing to you means the whole world to my feeling.
Revenge? i do not do that anymore. Rebellious, i try not to anymore. But what sickens me is that some people think i can change easily overnight.

I dont need the whole world to know how i am, who i am and what i am. i only need people to atleast take me *TAKE ME* for who i am, what i am and how i am, this is me. Just me. Ordinary. Imperfect, just like others.

A casual 'hi's and byes, a casual meet up, a casual phone call, just casual, those things mean nothing. Wouldnt lead you to a mutual understanding, you gotta know them, listen to them, be part of them and observe them, that is if you want to love them.

Trust me, nothing can ever happen, it wont lead you to nowhere but dissapoinment if you rush into things.

Be ready, prepared . oh , well prepared. Just saying things, I trust no one. Noone but me familia.

Please, To Friendship

2010-01-27T22:40:00.000-08:00

i am a friend who gives you good advice, i may be not the person who has all the experience, but i guess its obvious to see that someone you are trying to love is a TOTAL jerk. Why dont you people out there identify your weakness and put everything into account before judging others.
if you are truly a friend,
please be sincere,
please be honest,
please do not backstab.
oh yes, i am talking here, cos you never have the guts to say it to my face either.
.

i may not have all the money in the world,
i may not have the beauty that you are proud of,
i may not have the rich boys all around me,

but keep in mind, i have a family that loves and cares for me,
i have the happiness that someone i love can give me,
Last but not least, i have ONE GOOD BRAIN that i make good use of.

one question, where is yours?

I love you, Cousin. I understand you, no one in this world can perfectly understand you more than i do, maybe one, ( your husband) anywaysssss....
i love you YAS :)

eseh vaining ku dulu

2010-01-25T23:33:00.000-08:00

Me new me old. same me. same girl. hope is better.

eseh vaining ku dulu.

2010-01-25T22:25:00.000-08:00

Lunch out with CSPS. Admin & Finance.
venue: Dynasty, Gadong.
Date: 26.01.2010

Hero and Leander

2010-01-25T21:58:00.000-08:00

Bacalah.

It lies not in our power to love or hate,For will in us is over-ruled by fate.
when two are stript long where the course begin,We wish that one should lose, the other win;
And one especially do we affect
Of two gold ingots, like in each respect:
The reason no man knows; let it suffice,
What we behold is censured by our eyes.
Where both deliberate, the love is slight:
Who ever loved, that loved not at first sight.

ANGER

2010-01-25T19:23:00.000-08:00

"Anger is one letter short of danger."

"One should not lose one's temper unless one is certain of getting more and more angry to the end."
William Butler Yeats

2010-01-25T19:20:00.001-08:00

Getting over a break up is a tough feat. However, billions of people have been through the exact same thing and lived through it, so it is possible.
Dealing with a break up.

Many people deal with break ups in a variety of ways. Some believe it's best to get right back on the saddle, while others disagree and wait a short (or long) period before getting back into the game.

The main considerations are your comfort level, how serious the relationship was and how bad was the break up. Of course, if you are reading this article you must be having a hard time and still hold a broken heart – no matter how serious the relationship was.

Just remember, you will survive.
Keeping your cool in time of crisis is 90% of the battle. If you can keep calm, everything will be OK – and if not, call a good friend and tell him or her all about it. They will understand. The more days that pass the easier it will get, so no crazy stuff, comprende?
Mending a broken heart.

After a week or so you may start to feel better about your previous break up. This does not mean you should jump into another relationship right away, especially a serious one. Take your time. You have all the time in the world to feel better, and just because you meet a nice guy/girl does not mean you should go ahead with it. Your emotions may still be unstable and the first person you meet may get undeserved love.

Coping with the first three days of a break up are the hardest of all. However, the road to recovery is short and beneficial to our being. Without a broken heart, we may never know what we really want or really need. Surviving is the key, but after the survival of this terrible ordeal we find peace and someone better.

2010-01-25T19:16:00.000-08:00

LIVING IN AN EMPTY SHELL AND NOTHING SEEMS TO BE GOING WELL HAPPINESS ALWAYS SEEMS WITHIN MY GRASP BUT TO MY SURPRISE IT DOESN'T LAST

MY DAYS AREN'T WHAT THEY USED TO BE I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO THE REAL ME MY DAYS ARE NOW FILLED WITH SORROW WISHING I DIDN'T LIVE TO SEE TOMORROW

LOST AND HEARTBREAK IS WHAT I ENDURE THE PERSON I USED TO BE DOESN'T EXIST ANYMORE THE PERSON I'VE BECOME IS MY LIVING HELL AND STILL I LIVE IN THIS EMPTY SHELL

A Character

2010-01-25T19:03:00.001-08:00

I marvel how Nature could ever find space
For so many strange contrasts in one human face:
There's thought and no thought, and there's paleness and bloom
And bustle and sluggishness, pleasure and gloom.

There's weakness, and strength both redundant and vain;
Such strength as, if ever affliction and pain
Could pierce through a temper that's soft to disease,
Would be rational peace--a philosopher's ease.

There's indifference, alike when he fails or succeeds,
And attention full ten times as much as there needs;
Pride where there's no envy, there's so much of joy;
And mildness, and spirit both forward and coy.

There's freedom, and sometimes a diffident stare
Of shame scarcely seeming to know that she's there,
There's virtue, the title it surely may claim,
Yet wants heaven knows what to be worthy the name.

This picture from nature may seem to depart,
Yet the Man would at once run away with your heart;
And I for five centuries right gladly would be
Such an odd such a kind happy creature as he.

ANSWER

2010-01-25T18:54:00.000-08:00

Answer

Sound, sound the clarion, fill the fife!
To all the sensual world proclaim,
One crowded hour of glorious life
Is worth an age without a name.

2010-01-18T18:35:00.001-08:00

A fond kiss, and then we sever;
A farewell, and then forever!
Deep in heart-wrung tears I'll pledge thee,
Warring sighs and groans I'll wage thee.
Who shall say that Fortune grieves him,
While the star of hope she leaves him?
Me, nae cheerfu' twinkle lights me;
Dark despair around benights me.
I'll ne'er blame my partial fancy,
Nothing could resist my Nancy;
But to see her was to love her;
Love but her, and love forever.
Had we never lov'd say kindly,
Had we never lov'd say blindly,
Never met--or never parted--
We had ne'er been broken-hearted.
Fare thee well, thou first and fairest!
Fare thee well, thou best and dearest!
Thine be like a joy and treasure,
Peace. enjoyment, love, and pleasure!
A fond kiss, and then we sever;
A farewell, alas, forever!
Deep in heart-wrung tears I'll pledge thee,
Warring sighs and groans I'll wage thee!

Walks in Beauty

2010-01-18T18:29:00.001-08:00

Walks in Beauty

She walks in beauty like the night
of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that's best of dark and bright
meets in her aspect and her eyes:
Thus mellow'd to that tender light
which heaven to gaudy day denies.

One shade the more, one ray the less,
had half impair'd the nameless grace
which waves in every raven tress,
or softly lightens o'er her face -
where thoughts serenely sweet express
how pure, how dear their dwelling - place.

And on that cheek, and o'er that brow,
so soft, so calm, yet eloquent,
the smiles that win, the tints that glow,
but tells in days of goodness spent,
a mind at peace with all below,
a heart whose love is innocent.

EXTRAORDINARY MEETING

2010-01-17T16:51:00.000-08:00

KA Cheng :) with her lovely pose. She never liked taking photos till we came in to CSPS hahahahah :P

Stay pretty kaaaaa :)

ko

2010-01-15T18:31:00.000-08:00

there was a guy who used to be there for me, my bestfriend. He left. and i regret for i never asked him to stay. and yet, i am happy he found his true love in marriage.
if you are reading this( which i obviously know you do hehe :P) ...

DUDE,I GOTTA LET YOU KNOW SOMETHING!! its really hard to be in contact with you these days huh.

TORN :D

2010-01-14T00:21:00.001-08:00

I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm
He came around
And he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry

Well you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know
Or seem to care
What your heart is for
I don't know him anymore

There's nothin' where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothings right
I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune tellers right
I should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
But you crawled beneath my veins
And now, I don't care
I have no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can't touch
I'm torn

There's nothin' he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's right
I'm torn

i Said to Love

2010-01-13T18:44:00.000-08:00

I said to Love,
"It is not now as in old days
When men adored thee and thy ways
All else above;
Named thee the Boy, the Bright, the One
Who spread a heaven beneath the sun,"
I said to Love.

I said to him,
"We now know more of thee than then;
We were but weak in judgment when,
With hearts abrim,
We clamoured thee that thou would'st please
Inflict on us thine agonies,"
I said to him.

I said to Love,
"Thou art not young, thou art not fair,
No faery darts, no cherub air,
Nor swan, nor dove
Are thine; but features pitiless,
And iron daggers of distress,"
I said to Love.

"Depart then, Love! . . .
- Man's race shall end, dost threaten thou?
The age to come the man of now
Know nothing of? -
We fear not such a threat from thee;
We are too old in apathy!
Mankind shall cease.--So let it be,"
I said to Love.

i said to you, G.

Ice and Fire

2010-01-08T19:59:00.001-08:00

My love is like to ice, and I to fire:
How comes it then that this her cold so great
Is not dissolved through my so hot desire,
But harder grows the more I her entreat?
Or how comes it that my exceeding heat
Is not allayed by her heart-frozen cold,
But that I burn much more in boiling sweat,
And feel my flames augmented manifold?
What more miraculous thing may be told,
That fire, which all things melts, should harden ice,
And ice, which is congeal'd with senseless cold,
Should kindle fire by wonderful device?
Such is the power of love in gentle mind,
That it can alter all the course of kind.